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so...what's up?
whew!
busy days are over!
and now i have the liberty to enjoy the serene and calming atmosphere that is my room...
ah...this is the life...
but i don't have anything to do again...
oh yeah, annie's back! welcome home annie!!
heehee ^_^
we've also finished two successful Youth Camps last May 19-21 and May 26-28...its feels good to do something for God... ^_^
so...school time is here once again...
this summer has been my longest summer yet...
but this time, i don't mind that the summer is ending...
its different this year....not like any other "back to school" feelings...
i feel apprehensive, anxious and excited all at the same time...
hay...i wonder how this year is gonna turn out...
let's just wait and see...
(wala lang, gusto ko lang tlga magpost)
a bunch of thoughts and scribbles
--"what's all the fuss about?"--
we've all heard about the book called "Da Vinci Code"...
and people left and right are arguing about whether it is good or bad or evil or fiction...
i say, cut the crap.
now, i'm not saying that what the book says is true...
i'm not saying that it's false either.
c'mon people, has any of us ever really seen anything that happened in Jesus' time?
raise your hand if you've actually witnessed the time of Jesus...thought so.
all we have are writings from authors we know nothing of.
but take a look around...
all the things around you...where did it come from? the factory? well, where did the factory come from? where did anything come from? and what keeps this world alive and kicking?
this world proves that there is a God who made everything start and keeps everything going...
some may claim that Jesus has a wife...
some may claim that He doesn't...
but does it matter??
faith isn't about the facts...
because we can't prove if any of our information is true...
faith is about what you believe in, no matter what anyone says...
i believe in goodness, love and caring...
and i believe that God is all of these.
its just a book, don't get too worked up about it...
a person should read not just to judge and disprove...but to weigh and consider.
you can be open minded while keeping your faith.
respect other's opinion while keeping yours.
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--"just a thought..."--
i find it amazing that every second that passes only happens once in a lifetime...
like, the 1st second of the 17th day of april in the year 2006 only happens once...you can never repeat it again!
n-e-v-e-r...*shiver*
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--"hectic and happy"--
if you look at my calendar, you'll see a lot of circles...
and letters scattered around them...
there's meetings, outings, interviews...
gone are the days when i sleep all day...
yes! i'm finally doing something in my life!
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--"i miss you guys.."--
hala..ano itoh? namiss ko kau bigla...
tulungin! nasaan na kayo??
wala lang...bgla kong namiss and mga boses, kakulitan at kabaliwan ng aking mga kaklase...
hay...
new things to conquer...
but i still hope we can be by each other's side...
hay...
nakakasenti naman...
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oh yeah, i just wanted to thank all of you for reading my posts...it means a lot that you'd care enough to read what i've written (even if the reason you read is because you're bored...thanks pa rin ^_^)
so i'll just chill out, listen to "Unbelievable" and let time pass by while i reminisce the wonderful moments of my life...
it feels good to be alive. (and productive)
peace out.
Resh an Orientation P Gram, thoughts, and other words...
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you know, i think i would have been a daddy's girl...if he had stayed with us...heehee.
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i had a funny day last may 11...
i went to the school of economics building...i was 30mins early for my college briefing...
at 8:00, there was still no one around, but i just thought everyone was late...
at 8:30, i finally asked the guard, and i found out that i was supposed to go to the college of engineering building!
so instead of being 30mins early, i was 30 mins late.
and i didn't know that i was supposed to register my name before i come in, so i was the last to be called when they were handing out the form5A's...
hay...oh well, i met a few people though, they were all very nice ^_^
i really need to learn to ask...hehe:)
and besides, i got to eat at TokyoTokyo after that...all by myself..hehe..
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so we had this "Freshman Orientation Program" the next day...
the hosts were really funny XD
they had a sign up fron that was supposed to say "freshman orientation program"
but the letters f, m, r and o feel down...
so it read "Resh an Orientation P Gram"
ahahahahaa!!
UP fight! UP Go! UP Fight!
i feel like an iska already :)
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accelerating.
so yeah, i've got a lot of work now...lots of things to do, being a Camp Servant and all...
and enroling in UP also filled up my calendar...
i haven't got a lot of sleep...
and my body hurts...
thank God!
i finally have a purpose.
what it is, i don't know.
but whatever happens in my life has a reason.
i don't need to know that reason.
i just have to have faith that the reason is there.
:)
...searching...
What is my purpose in this world?
Today, all I did was watch some TV, eat, sleep, drink, surf the net and eat some more...
I am stuck in my room...
While the world goes by without me.
I watch as everyone in my world live their own lives...
while i am just here...listening to the sound of my own emptiness...
Silence mocking this burdened feeling...
I was once told that one person could change the world...everyone is important...everyone can do his/her part...
So...what am I doing here?
I am a lonely speck of dust...insignificant to the universe...
I have done nothing but fulfill my useless craving to watch TV...my useless thirst to surf the net...my useless desire to sleep the whole day...
I am useless.
Wasted.
Shame on me.
On this very moment, someone might be saving lives, or doing something monumental...
While I am here..lost in this abyss of confusion and hollow blackness...
I need to find myself...
In this world full of darkness and light...
I must have a reason to live...
I must find what my mission is...
I want to feel that exhilarating feeling of doing something for a good purpose...
God...help me.
What is my purpose in this world?
...
Oh look, my favorite show is on. *yawn*