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i'm blogging in UP!!
haha! it's my break between math and physics...and i'm in the CSSP cLab :D
heehee, just wondered what it would feel like to blog when the internet is fast...hahaha...!
so anywei, i gotta go and teach myself how to program,...i love my course ^____^!
heehee!:D
a cheesy dream of the future...
i hope to catch my self on a sunny weekend, sitting on a comfortable chair in a balcony overlooking a nice neighborhood, feeling the cool breeze pass me by while i enjoy some hot toasted pan de sal with some hot milo, with my husband kissing me good morning and asking me what i was thinking...
...and i hope to find myself saying "Oh nothing, just thinking about how happy i am..."
to which, i hope, he would reply, as he bends down to wrap his arms around me...
"yeah, i am too..."
and we'd exchange smiles...
...because words would not be able to explain anything.
~*~*~*~
on a very different topic...(which i'm not so sure i want to post, but here it is)
so we finally worked things out, and i finally found out why he had been acting so cold...
well, he had said that he was never cold to anyone in particular, but i found that hard to believe...
so, yeah, i guess we're cool again...
even though, according to him, we were never fighting in the first place.
at last, now i can eat in peace :)
i told him to smile a bit coz it would make him feel better...and he did, if only to please this person who was trying to cheer him up, but who was apparently failing to a certain degree.
*some words were supposed to be here..haha*
he's one of the very few people in my life i can talk with concerning the most mundane things like ants in his coffee, to the most mind-boggling things like how reality may not exist at all.
and i can actually talk "with" him, not "to" him.
don't get me wrong, i'm just ranting on about him because he's so damn interesting.
he certainly has more substance than some of the guys i've met, haha ^_^
*again, some words i'd rather keep private ^__^*
(reminds me of someone actually...with about the same amount of complexity and cynicism but with a bit more of the loving-life attitide.)
you're hating the way i'm being so vague, noh?
well, if you are, deal with it ^_^
if you're not, then thanks for appreciating my style of writing ^_^
if you don't, then it means enough that you cared to read up until here anyway.
i just feel relieved.
and if you know this person or suspect that you are, in fact, the one i'm writing about...
well, ha ha, congratulations on finding out that i find you interesting***. ^__^ it's really no big deal, duh.
so wipe that oh-so-toothy smile off your face and proclaim to the whole world that i am only, as a matter of fact, second to you in com sci by precisely 5.3 points.
grr, second in computer again...behind some guy who thinks of the world as a figment of one's imagination. (again, reminds me of that other person)
oh well, i dont' really mind :)
the vision of st. mary's was excellence, and i am (not so) proud to say that i've made their vision horribly unfullfilled.
ok, i need to stop writing now before i make this post anymore unpublishable due to content.
...what the hell, it already is anyway.
toodles!
shit. did i just type that in and say it out loud??
i must be reading too much devil-wears-prada-ish books...
math what?? math sucks!!
go UP!!!
moments trickle past
one by one
slowly engulfing the light
everything is still
its as if ive drowned
in a vast, cold deep sea
barely breathing
slowly fading
seconds pass and i
keep on standing still
listening to a voice
that doesn't exist
night
has enveloped me
leaving nothing but fear
of something unknown
i run away
and trip and fall
i look back and see
what happened to it all?
plunging deep
to another world
escaping vengeance and hatred and fear
wanting so much yet dare not go near
i stop myself short
and search for an answer...
and see that i've made...
nonsense.
hmmm...
yeah, i can't think of a proper title. so sue me, haha :D
i can't believe it, i'm actually becoming a teentalker, heehee^_^
so...hmmm...what do i wanna tell you guys?
oh yeah, this current fettish of mine for meg cabot's books...
i can't stop reading her works...i mean, i read one after the other, it's crazy. i don't usually read a lot of books in one week, because i like to let the story sink in before i move on...but i seem to crave for more after i finish one...it's weird...
i'm not saying it's not good though, i love her books!
but it's like i'm trying to escape something...my world maybe.
yuck! wait! i don't want to do that whole i'm-so-sad-i-have-to-rant-about-it-all-day thing right now...haha!
i'm currently addicted to reading e-books, and i find it cool that i can bring a 300+ paged book in my cellphone... haha! i love my phone!
must buy new memory card...
...and oh, kevin's still upset....aww...c'mon kev, don't hate us, we didn't do anything wrong...
hehe, well, that's it, need to do some other shit i need to do -__-
math exam on tuesday!!! wish me luck!