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on June 10, 2006...
i became single again.
perhaps a lot of the YFC people already know this by now.
but i need not explain to the whole world why char wanted this...
it would just frustrate me more when you say you don't understand.
the point is, we are no longer in a relationship.
and no one needs to get mad at anyone...
i need to say thanks to the people who kept me company while i was bawling and crying my heart out...
paopao, na umakbay sa akin, for the "great" advice, the "may kumaway" joke and for introducing me to mr. wiggles a.k.a martina de la brucha...
emem, na nagdala ng jellybeans dun, nagreklamo sa red na jellybean at nag offer na sumayaw sa harap ko...
bodie, na nagkwento ng kanyang nakakatawang experience...
gemmalie, na nagshare ng mga pick-up lines na nakalista...
jeca, who assured me na di nila ako iiwan kasi kaibigan nila ako at nagbigay ng comfort at tubig...
at syempre...
c apple, na bading pa rin, sinamahan ako the whole time, hinawakan ang kamay ko habang umiiyak ako at nagdonate ng isang "puno" galing sa kanyang "gubat"
c tintin, na pinakinggan ako hbang humahagulgol ako sa telepono, sinamahan din ako the whole time, nagbigay ng tissue na pinunit-punit ko, hinawakan din ang kamay ko, binunutan ni apple ng buhok pra ibigay sa akin at hinahawi ang bangs ko...
salamat din sa iba pang mga tao na baka di ko na narecognize...it meant a lot.
thanks din kay papa mussy and jayjay for the stories and the laughs the night before...it really helped a lot...
i don't know what i'm feeling right now...i haven't cried again since yesterday...i feel at peace...and yet disturbed...i'm scared to feel that emptiness in my heart again...i don't know if i'm running away from the loneliness...but i'm a bit stable now...
i don't need to rush to the "getting over" part...i don't need to hate char...i don't need to forget him...because i still love him...but i don't need to wish that we'd be back together...i don't need to wish that we don't get back together either...bahala na c God...
i can go through my days with a smile...pain would still be there...but i can deal with it...even if tears are no longer enough to help me cope...
this is part of God's plan...i'll see where it takes us...
char...
thanks for everything...
iLoveYou. :)
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oh look...a cutter...
joke! hahaha! i'm against that, remember? ;P
i actually want to try bar-hopping...but i won't do that either...good girl ako, heehee :)
as i've said before...don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. :)